Creative Cravings

I fell on my mother's yorkie today. This is my worst nightmare.

I thought i had seriously hurt him. I have NEVER heard a dog make that noise. WE thought his leg or should was broken, but after he calmed down. He was okay.

He finally crawled across the bed and licked my face. So I think he realized how shoken up I was and thought HE had to comfort ME!! What a dear.

My mom took a nap with him and he seems fine now, but he his quite for him and spending even more time in her arms. The boy is milking it she says.

Me I am traumatized. I laid down, adrenaline rush=crash and had a nightmare I woke up and found him dead from undiagnosed internal injuries or worse that he had a herniated disk or something.

If I had hurt him or worse, I don't think my mom would have forgiven me. She says she would have it was an accident, but I don't know. More to the point I would not have forgiven myself.

That is my worst nightmare come true that my CP will cause me to fall on or stumble and step on and seriously hurt one of my pets. My self I don't care about but my animals? I couldn't live with that.

I have to interview the Department Chair for the Communication Department tommrow. It is for my Journalism 101 class. I had to take this class to fill my schedule before I decided not to graduate this semster but to get a double major in Sociology instead. Wish I had known that, I could have taken another Sociology class. I dislike this class. Its okay to learn another form of journalism, and according to the tests I would make a good one, but I don't like it.

I am nervous about this interview. The assignment is vauge, find something interesting about him and right a inverted pyrimid article. BTW the inverted pyrimid? It has got to be the most boring form I have EVER come across in my LIFE TO WRITE IN.

I have no idea what to ask him. I perfer to do interviews when I have to with a few feller questions and branch off, going where the interview takes, me. I am more intuative then rigid. I tried to resarch him. There is nothing forth coming on the University site, google, internet searches yeild nothing. I did find him on linked in, but there is bear bones, nothing to go on. To say I am nervous is an understatement.

Also they want me to get a twitter. I don't WANT A TWITTER.

I already have a live journal, an insanejournal, a dreamwidth, facebook, now linked in for this class, a seperate school blog for this class and now twitter for this class? Do they not realize what a massive time suck this is all becoming??? AGGGHHHHH

I am in my Journalism 1010 class right now, which i did not need to take but I needed an extra class for the government program I am in. I thought it would be interesting, and it can be, occassionally, But right now, I am soooo bored. We are discusssing Quotes.

I didn't do my reading for the next class. This is the first time I have done it this semester. Trust it to be the the time we have to write something on the material.

Rush Limba read FREAKING IDIOT compares Obahma's ideas for health care reform to Hitler Germany. It gets compared to socialism (like all forms of socialism are bad). *Snorts* Basically instead of reading for themselves my grandfather's generations is screaming the commies are coming the commies are coming, and what's worse? My parent's is just bowing to them.

Instead of standing up and educating the public, The President caves, the result. The healthcare crisis and its drain on the economy remains. It becomes my generation's problem and along with social security. FYI...Social Security was only designed to last 20-50 years max. Give it a few years the Healthcare crisis will not only be our problem, but something we caused.

Getting stuff out, for a garage sale???? Annoying as all get out. It causes more of a mess, then the clutter did to begin with if you ask me. And there is no garauntee this stuff will sale. Then I have to find something to do with this stuff again.

Life suckage. Same shit. Different day. Move out? Not an option. Their my responsability, and now come to find out idgit is really ill, but still suckage. WAHHHHHH. Plus my hormones suck.

P.S. I wish I was a lesbian. Because men obviously have no fucking taste.

Some men are so flipping useless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I swear if you ask them to have bestir themselves to help with something in the middle of the night-make them mid morning- no its to much!!! I just AHGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH how is it that the majority of the civilized world is and remains a male dominated society?????

What posses somebody to title a collection of scholarly articles, Queering the Middle Ages? Do they fail to see that this title is likely to offend people? Yes the collection is about homosexuality in the middle ages-obviously- but still! It is sensational, which I guess is the point, but it still strikes me as unbelieveably unsensative and rude.

I do feel like doing a reactionary sociology paper, on some of the looks and or treatment I've gotten just from carring that book around. Unfortuantely, I am not taking a class where it would apply. Maybe I'll make notes a keep the idea in case I take Gender studies as an elective.

I have to pick a topic any topic within the Caunterbury Tales and write a 10 page paper on it. Easy Right. Wrong. Do you realize How BIG THE CT is and how many topics it coves? Even picking a single TALE. tends to run you up against about oh... five topics.

This topic is just too open ended. I can't pick wear to start. My teacher's advice of pick a tale you like and pick a topic within one. Isn't helping. The one's I like either are the ones my teacher loves. This is not a good idea. Never do a large paper on a topic you know your teacher not only knows more about then you, but actually loves. At least not with such a limited space of time. It is not healthy to your GPA. Or problem number two the tale is to short for even ME to get 10 pages out of.

Don't get me wrong I have really enjoyed this class, and this teacher. A lot. I would take another course offered by him in a minute, but his paper topics? They suck.

I need inspiration, FAST, not now but NOW!!!

Bad News, I have a Migraine. It only dosen't hurt when I am laying down, and that's not to say it dosen't hurt, so much as is ignorable. But I am not tired at all. Bored now. Eyes burning.

Good news. On the 26 a young man stopped me and asked if I had lost a MP3 player. I said I had and asked if it was red. He and the young lady, GF (?) said it was. And that he didn't had it with him. I asked could he bring it Thursday and he said he would, but he and the lady had to go to a funeral so did I live near the college. I don't but didn't have anything to do that day. I decided to hang around the CULP and he ran home after his class and got it, bringing it to me. Not only was it t to mine, but I discovered when I got home, it was fully charged!!!

It was a shame that he had a GF which I strongly think this girl was, because he was nice and cute, and seemed interested in me. I however have my rule. Sigh, but I got my Zune back!!!!

I haz out of town compnay which I don't mind really. Its kinda fun. But I is tired. This twin size fold away bed and I don't get along, also I missed my English class again because I didn't have my plates renewed. This turned out ot be a good thing. Because last night my mind refused to work, so I wouldn't have been much use in my Caucher class. I'm just hoping I can get enough studing and sleep in for my Anthro class tommrow. I really need to ace this test!

Haven't been able to get any writing or reading in.
Did manage to download Music Music Music though I haven't listen to all of it. I really like "What about us." Its a buetiful song. It dosen't sound Karaoke or musical theatherish at all. John Barrowman should really do some more original songs.

My music player is STILL MIA. Somebody swipped it. It isn't coming back, and that burns. Really its cuss inducing, but I am TRYING to clean up my mouth. There is no reason for creative person to need to swear. I should be able to evisercate someone, without using the four letter words right? Right, now if only- my foul mouthed family members would go home this might be easier to keep to. Probably not. Anyway, I can't afford a new MP3 player, at all, but I'm probably going to buy one on credit. Addicted? How me? Yes, I feel like I part of me is missing, especially when I go to clean house

I am a 26 Year old, white English Major. I am working on my last three classes before I get my BA. If I am very lucky and the planning committee faries are nice to me I will graduate in December. I need a job. I have NO job expeirance to put on my resume. I focused manily on my schooling. Until I screwed up my back I did not consider my CP a disablity now I can not stand all day- so I need job that allows me to sit for short periods at least. SO I have a resume is all Scholarly and isn't staller because I chose to be there for my family, I have a slight disability and no former job experiance. I am willing to work my way up, but even that in today's struggling economy means I am screwed.

My family's bussiness is a serivce based industry and we are getting no calls. I am feeling absolutely useless when it comes to helping them. I have the college education I should be able to pull them through, in my senior year. Got to love the USA.

This is just a poor me post feel free to ignore if you want. Graphic Content that will make some readers uncomfortable

( Sometimes it Sucks being a Girl )

My perscious is all wonky. pets its plastic polmeyers. Feel better darling. We don't wants to send you into the evil men of microsoft, no we donts!!!!!!!!!!!
Glares what???? My Zune is acting all wonky. I've tried to reboot it and reboot it, I've tried to restart it. Charge it, leave it alone and horror of horrors whipe its firmware and reinstalll the stuff which it then wouldn't do because it said It only had 1 GB of space! As if I bought the 80 gig last year, I think am creaping up on having had used maybe 2-3 gigs maybe 7 but thats it! Going to try it again. I don't want to send it in, its under warranty yes but still. Yes I am addicted. Got a problem with it? LOL/

Dear Hurrican

Changing your path and threatening not only Huston but also the Galveston area, and therefore my Aunt, Uncle and most important Grandmother-who is not in the best of heath! IS NOT Cool and TOTALLY UNCALLED FOR! NO COOKIES FOR YOU!!!

4:30 am wake up call after spending a sleepless night the night before is to early! Add to that the reason for the wake up call my mom's surgery and you have the start to a wonderfully stressful day for me yesterday! By 5:30 my mom is suppose to be in surgery only she isn't she isn't even in pre-op not really she's still in the same day surgery per op area where they get her ready perfore taking her to pre-op. They give her a sedative shot, becasue she has panic attacks for IVs so she will stay calm for the pre-op IV ectera and wait. Only the sedative dosen't appear to work on her. When they take her back to pre-op I am told to go to the waiting room, but Jr went with her, was actually ordered to go by the pre-op nursing team, according to SDS nursing team. I think this fell under the prior proper planning prevents patient hysterics plan in the nursing staff's mind! Not that the ansteologist seemed to care in his words when my mother told him she had panic attacks and was he going to sit on her because the sedative hadn't worked, "No and I'm not going to let anyone sit on you either." He may have had the bedside manner of a toadstool but appearenly he was good becasue he had the IV in in less then ten seconds, my mother didn't even seem to realize he did it. She says she felt the pin prick, Jr doubt that. And the injection that followed that, took effect immediately putting her into what they call a "twilight sleep" for the operation, instead of general.

It worked better, she wasn't sick after words though it did take her longer to come out of the sedatives it seemed then general, but oh well, by about 10:30 we were home, having eaten McD's on the way home. By about 12 I had husteled my toddlerish acting grandparents ::rolls eyes:: Why must they touch and change EVERYTHING lately??? out of the house and we all collapsed into sleep. Woke up long enough to feed us McD's again. Two servings of it a day is soo gross!!! Feed the dogs, find out the internet connectino was FUBAR and fall asleep again.

Woke up today to start the nursing process again, find out my schooling is still Fubar-looks like I am getting another semster off- and got a perm. Jury is stll out on wither I actually like it. Everyone else seems to like it, they say it looks good, makes me look younger, slimmer, yadda, yadda, me I can't decide. Oh and my internet is still splottchey. I sense a new router purcuse in my future. Darnit.

Fics
Big Bang ALMOST DONE finally despreally needs beta Donna/Ten friendship post finale
Lopaka Tanu request fic done posted needs beta Torchwood Ianto centric G
Kabal 42 request almost done hand wrtten needs typing and beta
pinkfairy request WIP- fic mapped and in mind
Personal Torchwood WIP that started as a Dabble and lost its mind well growing
Owen Season 2 intospective peice stalled
Harry Potter Behind Blue Eyes-stalled
Harry Potter Hermonie Wolf -stalled-being restructered written
LTs EFC fic idea -in consideration

It's my Birthday today, I am 26! Today is going to be absolutely completely without a doubt lack luster, bordering even on the suck worthy! I am not saying this for pity, although pressies are all welcome but I was hoping my ficlists would perhaps have some requests that I could mayble fulfill, when I get back from my meeting with the University counselors (which is almost GUARENTTED to PISS ME OFF) so I can immerse my energies in that, so any prompts.

No HEREOS please, I know nothing about the fandom, although I am willing to make Heroes graphics If i am provided with the images!

In case anyone one is wondering why I haven't been on much the last few days. I got my wisdom tooth pulled Monday afternnon. So that knocked out two days of online time, and went back to school to find out I have a test tommrow covering three Units of work. Normally I like Summer Classes but cramming some courses that equal about 3-4 months of work into 1? Some its doable, some its just slightly insane. Sighs, its a good thing a good portion of these Geography Units where review from my previous Geology Course.

I thought online job applications would make the process easier. After all I wouldn't have to worry about them not being able to read my attrocious pen-men ship. And at least, I knew that the application didn't automatically go into the trash before Human resources saw it, because of my limp. All good things. But seesh. All I have been doing is feeling out online applications and I am drained! One took, three hours, and it was just for a book retailer. Three hours! I have had essay exams that took less times. Seesh.

I AM SOOOOOO BORED!!!!! SIGHS!!! I need some good fic to read, or a good idea to write, or someone to IM. Not even watching jewelery on TV is entertaining me. Maybe I will go see if I can go find some Dr. Who episodes on the net. Where is the good smut or just a good story when I feel like it?